Letting the tears flow.. Allowing them to just be, and not sure when the heaviness will lift.. Trusting. Trusting that all will be well.

Grieving..

Grief is a reflection that we not only lost but we loved. Wholeheartedly. With every ounce of our being. We loved.

All of it sure does remind us how much love we still had to give..

Impossible to put the emptiness into words.. but still seeing the beauty of life in the midst of the pain – we love so deeply, to the point where we cannot fully comprehend the loss of it. The pain is unexplainable. We cannot fathom such pain. It is bigger than us.. Leads us to something greater. Leads us to believe in something bigger.

Grief is all the remaining love you had to give. The endless supply. You release it all at once when they pass. The release is that intense physical pressure you feel on your heart.. That feeling of emptiness that lingers. All of your love guiding them on.

We feel so deeply, so beautifully deep. Our depth IS the goodness in the world.

As we enter this new place of grief, we begin healing ourselves through the existential loneliness and emptiness that arrives. We are guided through. However, at times we want to run away from it. Facing it seems more painful than leaning away from the honesty of it all.

When we refill, sometimes we seek external filling. We can’t look to others to fill us. No other being can fill the spaces that only WE are meant to fill as we heal.

Trust. Trusting.

We can, however, find others to sit with us through our struggle, through our heartache, through our emptiness.

Hopeful.. Hopeful to find someone who makes an effort to understand our difficult emotions.

Tenderly holding us, bravely loving us, and patiently waiting for us to see lighter days. Just as we would do for them.

Grieving..

We loved. And still, we love.

With your heart in mind,
Dakotah